IN LIMBO...

A MESSAGE FROM THE GLASS TABLE GIRL:

(Mykonos, Greece)

The past three months have left me in a submissive head-space; which has somewhat diffused my will to write. Submission is something that is often regarded as negative, due to the conditioned notion of the role being one of degradation. My subconscious has taken over my state of being and I am always grateful for these moments of silence; as they allow for my soul to revive its energy, propelling it to the extremes of constant reflection. My consciousness, in turn, has matured so-much-so, that in its submission, it has allowed for my soul to attract that which I am: grace, love and a state of harmonious equilibrium. This has been evident in the relationships that I am submerged in; as well as, those I am now able to value from a greater distance. 

It is in my belief that one should never force oneself to fulfil a role that one is not destined to play. I have been fasting for Ramadaan and praying continuously - as one should be doing - which has allowed for me to remember my sense of inner strength, peace and love. I am reminded daily of my purpose in this world, which is: to inspire through my culinary artistry, to enlighten through my spiritual connections and to uphold a sense of duty through written stimulation. It is due to these pillars of my existence, that I am able to regenerate my faith in others everyday. A dear friend of mine recently told me that her purpose in this world, is to love. In exchange, I reflected on my own will to love and in so-doing, uncovered some miserable discoveries about people who I once believed in. I had the opportunity to dive into intense discussions of why? how? when?, but I decided that it is best to understand that deceit is a dark trait that everybody explores at one point or another. In allowing for the nature of another person's actions to depict the follow through of mine, I would be going against my strong determination to always forgive and take the Karmic experience as one of true learning. 

It is our duty as neighbours to always encourage each other to be better in this life and the next. Without each other, we are mere idles of solitude and to exist alone is no man's dream. As I am reaching my mid-20's, I am feeling constantly challenged by my ideals of love, passion, faith and desire. Love and passion, play a more integral role in my discoveries, for I am at a point in my life, whereby: my happiness deserves to be shared with a counterpart, who is willing and worthy of exploring it, in its full capacity. As the saying goes, "Everything happens in Allah's time." and until he is ready to present me with more reward(s), I will continue to achieve a higher sense of being; in the hopes of stimulating an ever-lasting sense of the revolving evolution of self and selves-alike. I am questioning my past and taking the answers with me into my future; whilst remembering to live in my present. Lovers and friends have dropped like flies and I am ecstatic that there are fewer and farther between, for the ones who are with me today, are the ones who I have always cherished the most. The ones who I have yet to meet, as I move forward, are the ones who will be most likely to enlighten me further and there are few better feelings than the excitement of being inspired by fresh souls. 

I am looking forward to transferring to the other side - where this may be? - is a question that I ask myself daily. I see the answer in my dreamworld - my favourite place, where the mysteries are plentiful and doubt, an unfamiliar face. Day-by-day I am falling more in love with this period of growth; for only the strongest of people are able to walk through it with a sense of vigor and an attitude of perseverance. To stand firm in your ever-changing nature is something that is not readily accessible to most of us and in making more of an effort to become brighter with the break of each dawn, we can only be successful in our every endeavour.

So with all that is said and done, always remember to fulfill the destiny of the dreamer within you; for without our dreams, we are bottomless vessels, floating unnaturally through this beautiful journey of life.

Have the Best Day Ever!

Love,

Khaleesi Ipeleng of the *Universe* x

P.S. 'Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.' - Angel, Maya Angelou.