PART 3

The Weak of Rock Bottom...

I closed my heart, for the fear of not loving me.
I closed my eyes for the love of being unseen.
When I closed my soul, it began to shatter.
I have yet to be told why.
What I thought of my world and the light in which you shone.
I will always remember the days.

I spend some of them in wonder of what you would be.
Beside me, My eyes
Inside out of yours.
To be close to you and feel you
Hold you in my soul. The window to my life's treasures.
A forceful nature of my grounding sense. The renewed light, within I reside.
The amused, from whom I wish to be forlorn.
When you are again in my presence, again and again we shall exchange in reward

Of each other.

Of our darkness
Our light.
Of our sorrow

Of ambitious love.
Of faith
Of gratitude

For the grace of power in its element
My power
Our power
Forever, to Thee.

Khaleesi of the *Universe* x

P.S. "What I like are things that are different every time" - Andy Warhol. 

PART 2 :

The Universe Has Its Games...

Have you ever dated someone and then realised, after you start to date them that perhaps they are not the one for you, but due to your ability to be committed to your choices, you let the relationship ride its wave until such a point where there is no turning back – or rather that you are very much interested to see if they fulfil the potential that is built up in your head? What is it about us that allows for us to go against our gut and stay in these relationships, knowing very well that they are doomed for disaster? It is the subconscious necessity of having to go through the experience? The greater power that is manifested in your ability to recognise yourself in dealing with another spirit and allowing for that spirit to enter your being, physically, mentally and emotionally – if need be.

 I suppose that one only comes to such a realisation after having been in that relationship. The lessons appear to us in the near and far future, but they are really initiated throughout the time that we are exploring the realms of another being; hence our ability to use expressions such as: “in hindsight” and “I knew it when we were together”...
This past weekend compelled riveting conversations centred on relationships and their norms. I exchanged words of peace with strangers, sisters and friends alike. I thought to myself:  In a world of such turmoil, where my people are being killed for no apparent reason at all and children are dying, hourly, due to malnutrition, what purpose does our ideal of love play within the roles of our highly complex societies?

A story that I wish to share with you is one of moral fibre. I used to work as a chef in a small restaurant with a small open kitchen. The nature of this restaurant was to go out onto the floor and engage the customers – my favourite activity. It was on a beautiful summer’s night when I saw a very handsome gentleman (I hope) enter the room. I noticed that he had been looking my way from time-to-time, but I simply ignored him and continued with that evening’s service. At the end of the evening, I walked around the space, ensuring the comfort of our guests and when it came time to approach him, I became excited. I was in a relationship at the time. I had to remain focused on my work and less so on the dream that was sitting in front of me. I thought to myself, “You are in a committed relationship with someone and that is all that matters”. – My intention is to never hurt people and I have now understood that most of my life, I have misunderstood the notion that:

‘Just because we choose to fulfil our own levels of happiness, it does not mean that we possess the intent to hurt the feelings of another.’ – Ipeleng Motuba.

Sure, my partner ended up being somewhat of a loser who was unfaithful towards our relationship and I, but at the time, I knew that it would be ‘morally incorrect’ to entertain even the fantasy of being with another person outside of my relationship – especially if my partner and I had never discussed the values of being in an open relationship or any other such agreements thereto. The funniest part of the story is that the very same woman, with whom my partner cheated with, is now engaged to another man. So at the end of it all, does it really matter? Does any of it matter? I could harbour anger and resentment towards our relationship and the pretence behind it, but why choose to affect myself in a way that otherwise creates a deeper inner turmoil. Rather, I have forgiven us all, for I am grateful. In hindsight, he is not a loser. He was just not meant for me.
It happened that, a few weeks later, the very same gentleman (the one from the restaurant) had appeared to be the former best friend of someone who I became very close to at the time of my working there. Not only that, but I too had dated an old friend of his, with whom I have since, lost touch.  All of a sudden, I saw this man wherever I turned and I had to fight very hard to ignore myself whenever we were around each other. He too seemed coy, but that is another story for another day. What I want to know and think of, to this day, from a moral perspective is that: Are we still stuck in an era; whereby we restrict ourselves to the point that we have to suppress our urges and desires to be with anyone whom we choose, within our personal limits, of course? I.e. is it wrong to be with someone who used to sleep with, date or be married to your friend or member of your family? Is it as taboo as we have depicted it to be, over the years of our existence? Surely the immoral aspect would come into play if you were to engage that person whilst they are in their relationship and not the other way around? What then does it make of one who chooses to do so outside of any other relationship? People often say that it depends on how the former relationship ended. My belief (today) is that it is inevitable that as friends, brothers and sisters of like minds, we will find ourselves attracted to the same people. So if you are happy and your friend’s/brother’s/sister’s happiness depends on your approval; yet, you decline such approval,

are you really as happy as you believe yourself to be or do your harbour some angst that you have yet to deal with? #ThinkAboutIt

A client of mine, made a valid statement towards me the other week in saying “You would think that due to the ways in which we have progressed over the years (psychologically, physically, technologically etc.) that sexual liberation and/or orientation would by now, be detached from any need to become emotional about our sexual acts and/or preferences; as well as, our desired counterparts – within reason.” My interpretation of what he said was that, perhaps

it does not necessarily matter who, when and with whom we sleep with, marry or date.
After all, people (read black people) are being shot every day, for no apparent reason; so, in the bigger scheme of life and its progression, are sex, love and marriage still as highly related to the ideals and morals that are associated with societal norms as we once believed them to be? The second question within the bigger scheme of life’s confusion is that
when it comes to love, does it really matter who you love, where they come from and how you were brought into each other’s lives;
or, is it always the way of the Universe, challenging us to fulfil our own happiness, even it may at first appear “wrong” in the eyes of others?

Best Love,

Khaleesi of the *Universe*

P.S. "A life would be better made, if peanuts tasted like cashews." - Ipeleng Motuba.

PART 1:

I would have never believed them... 

It was almost a year ago, that I found myself in a situation whereby I had lost: two jobs, an apartment and my lover all in the space of a month. I was at an all time low and I had a lot of serious doubts about myself for the very first in my life. I am usually great at rolling with the hard times, but the year of 2015 exposed me to the most vulnerable side of my character - for which I will forever remain grateful. 

I was in a state of mind that questioned why it is that my desired purpose to share my talent was uncoupled from the ways in which the Universe had projected its powers on the outcomes of my bold ambitions. If someone had told me at the beginning of last year that my partner would later become disloyal, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my dear friend would later fire me, I too would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my other former boss would never let me step foot in the kitchen, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my ex-flatmates would cause for me to be evicted from our apartment, I would have never believed them.

I would have never believed that my happiness would be in jeopardy of those by whom I chose to surround myself with - by those whom I thought myself to love.

I suppose that this is what happens sometimes, when you instill your trust in others. It became so important for me to start protecting my purpose and my duties as a global citizen; that I decided to empower myself by starting again. I decided that it was time to head back home and that perhaps the harsh realities that I was exposed to were a message from that very same Universe to redirect my ambitions towards a more compelling greatness. The greatness that I am feeling today! The greatness of being able to take a small piece of every lesson learnt through the aforementioned experiences. The greatness of self-preservation. 

So there I found myself, driving from Cape town to Johannesburg, a day after I had found out that my partner had been unfaithful towards me and our relationship - Can you imagine having to put your anger aside in order to embark on a 15 hour road trip with the one who has betrayed you, the one who you once thought to be your all, in the name of love? - I do not have to, for I lived through such pain and I will continue to live through more pain that I shall blessed enough to experience; for without it, I would not be dressed with the ammunition to keep on fulfilling all of my passions. 

I have been absent for the past eight months, but I am back and my motivation force is stronger that ever before. I had to get my mind, body and soul right in order to be able to share with you again; from peaceful state of mind and a forgiven heart. I do not feel anger anymore, for anger is no longer within me.

If someone had told me during that tumultuous time that I would be sitting here today, writing this letter to you all, I would have never believed them. If they had said that I would be sitting here today, as an entrepreneur, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me then, that I would be able to look at my former lover, friends and employers and envision a future where we can one day be friends, I would have never believed them and 

If someone had told me that my soul would have been broken in the first place, I would have never believed  them.

To be continued... 

Best,

Khaleesi aka Glass Table Girl x

P.S. "When love is not enough, remember to love some more." - Ipeleng Motuba. 

The Years Between Love.

As women (I speak for myself and the ones with whom I have shared these thoughts) we are taught from a very young age that the way of a man is to behave in a manner that is unfaithful. We are also taught that the way of a woman is to accept that this is the way of a man. Our mothers went through many experiences where our fathers placed them in the positions to develop ways in which they should remain strong within their relationships - at most times, when all they really wanted to do, was run away. 

I am beginning to wonder why it is that we (women) are so willing to sacrifice as much as we do for the greater good of the love that we have for the next person. We are consistently encouraging each other to forgive the wrongdoings of our partners because, we love them. We are always reminding each other to be conscious of our sexual accumulation out of the fear of being judged. We are constantly wiping away each others tears with great despair and we somehow find the strength to remind each other that. YOU ARE A WOMAN AND THIS IS WHAT WOMEN OUGHT TO DO.

Psychologists might argue from a biological perspective; in allowing for us to believe that women are by nature, more easily inclined to understand and react more lovingly to situations of infidelity. They might argue that for years, we are conditioned to believe that once we have found a 'good man', we should hold onto him, no matter what and that we always strive to look for the bliss within the bigger picture - in moments when we have experienced the same kind of hurt that makes us too, want to run away. We are also conditioned to believe that there are very few 'good men' out there, thus, our inability to let go of those who affect us negatively out of the fear that we may not find as great a sense of security in the man that we are so willing to let go of. We are conditioned to think through our wombs and the aspirations therewith. We are taught to behave in a manner that is lady-like for we should not place ourselves in a position where we could face the risk of not being chosen. We are taught that we are the ones who are handpicked and that once we are chosen, we should remain eternally grateful that we have been privileged enough to stand out amongst the others. Naturally, we have been conditioned to compete against each other. 

I sometimes wonder why we were never conditioned to compete against men, because I find that if we were, then there would be more balance within our societies as a whole and men would not feel as harshly affected by being beaten by a woman under any circumstance, but would rather accept the fact that we are sometimes, better than they are at performing ordinary tasks that were initially designed for 'the man'. I believe that if we were taught to compete against men, then they too would be of the greater understanding that it is not only women who are the ones who should be chosen. We could compete with them in order to break down the barriers that exist between us. We could create a heightened balance in the feeding game in allowing for them to know that they are not the only ones who have the power to choose. That they too are capable of leading a life of loneliness due to the ways in which they portray themselves. They too should know that their seed may no longer worthy of being implanted due to the fact that it has lost its value. That they too might be considered as 'undesirable' once their sexual aura has encapsulated a certain quota of vaginas. They too should be concerned with their sexual odours, organs and all-round performance and they too should know that we are more than capable of exploring as many of the others that we want to. They too should know the importance of having to stroke the ego of a woman that they wish to encourage. We too should begin to embrace the changes that we wish to see in this world. We too should let it be known.

It makes me happy to understand that more women are willingly standing up for themselves within their relationships with each other and those that they find themselves in at home. I thrive off the conversations that I have had with many women over the years about the ways in which they wish to achieve personal success. I am inspired daily by the ever-increasing number of female entrepreneurs.  This is still something that is traditionally 'abnormal', but with the way that I see the changes that I wish to impose on the world/my world, I feel positively assured by the ways that more women are becoming free within their expressions of self, sex, love and war. 

I would like for us to condition ourselves and the daughters of the future to become even stronger than our mothers were. More vicious in their stature. To believe in the love that they have for themselves. To choose and no longer be chosen. To embrace their sexual connections. To be liberated within their choices and  for us to end the hate that comes with being the one who is no longer afraid to be her ultimate Goddess. I would like for us to become emotionally detached from personal projections that we may place on the next woman and I want us to encourage each other to fight harder for the freedom that we have been given within this life and the next. For without us, the global population would cease to be carried into its existence and that is a power that no man or woman can ever strip us of. 

With best wishes and kindness from my heart,

Khaleesi Ipel of the Universe x

P.S. This is not a piece articulating any dislike for men; rather one that is aimed at uplifting women. 

Loveless Hurt.

I am hurt, because those who love are proving to be incapable.
I am hurt, because those who taught me to love have become enslaved by the power of deceit.
I choose not to hurt because they are the ones who allowed for me to become strong and
with that I am free of the inhibitions of guilt.

With that I am free of the despair that leaves me darkened in the presence of their souls.
I am here for eternity for I know now what I did not know before,
In the words of my heart, I choose to soar high and
to the ones that choose to hurt me, I choose to leave behind.

The hurt within the disconnect will forever remain unashamed,
For the hurt that you have brought into my soul is no longer the cause or blame.
Of the way, in which I choose to be.
No longer a part of your soul
And when the time comes that you reflect on your conduct,
Your time will be of mold.

Bon Lundi mes amis
Khaleesi x

P.S. "One day, the people that did not believe in you will tell everyone how they met you." - Johnny Depp.

I Have To Celebrate You Baby!

There are few better feelings than the feeling of progression. An expression recently came to mind and that is: 'He who knows not how to break through the laws of love, knows only the law of a loveless life.' - Ipeleng Motuba. 

It is so important for us to hone our skills of loving ourselves and the people by whom we choose to surround ourselves with. To maturely accept the criticisms that those who love us, have to offer - without absorbing their words as an attack, rather understanding the ways in which they hope to influence our own progression in life. 

There is never a good time to have your feelings hurt by a loved one, but there is always a good time to forgive within the hurt and to heal together in a way that allows for the refreshment of the existing love. Whether it be the love and hurt between friends, families or partners, there is always a period through which we are bound to heal, for the power of hurt is merely a by-product of the power of love and without that love, there would be no hurt to explore in the first place. There is always a time to remember the ways in which we express our sense of despair towards one another and a time in which we should reflect on the expressions that are exchanged.

How is it that we are so hastily disturbed by another person's truth? Is it due to the fact that we are conditioned to believe only in the wrongdoings of another being; therefore, we should always remember them in that burdened light? Or should we rather subject ourselves to the ideals of spiritual reform which allow for us to deflect these wrongdoings in a manner that is peaceful and all-encompassing of the ways in which we wish to rectify the defiance of one soul to another? The latter, being the harder condition to follow always ends up being the most rewarding and there is no better way to inform ourselves of being true to our sense of well-being than allowing for the spirit, the heart, the breath and the love to guide us towards our ultimate destination of self. 

Thank you for being a part of my journey and for always helping me to look forward to the fulfilment of what lies ahead.

Have a beautiful weekend and remember to always strive for the kind of love that allows for the expansion of the soul.

Best,

Khaleesi x

P.S. "'He who knows not how to break through the laws of love, knows only the law of a loveless life.'

The Love Below.

When we consider our expectations within the bonds that are created in a loving relationship, what is it that we really expect to achieve? When it comes to the love shared between blood relations, we are forced into a state of co-habitation that allows for us to experience each other from the time that we are born into the same families; thus allowing for us to engage each other in the same space for long periods of time, with no escape. When one reflects on the ideals of learning to love a person who is undoubtedly a stranger to the soul, then the complexities that arise within that learning seem to appear more and more as time continues to allow for us to explore each other in every possible light that we find ourselves in darkness. 

The key element to the recovery of the pain that exists within a loving relationship is to allow for the other person to always express themselves from the point of anger, to the point of success. From the conception of sadness to the revelation of elation. What is it that you are willing to fight for and/or against once you have recognised another soul's entrapment of your own. The subconscious understanding of fear met with the denial that one person could love you so much in the sense that he/she is willing to make the ultimate sacrifice; in the hopes of preserving such a love, is something that I believe we are always submissive to (the fear, that is.). We are often taught that for every action there is a reaction, but we are not taught that this is a revolving occurrence that can lead us into a state of despair; followed by the renewal of something that was initially meant to be.

The vows of marriage read that we should love each other: In sickness and in health. In good times and in bad. For better or for worse. If we primarily allow for ourselves to adhere to these vows when it comes to the point of a union blessed by the Gods, then how can we really prepare for them in the times that lead up to this point in a loving relationship with a stranger. We need to keep ourselves aligned with these vows in relationships that we create for ourselves in order to have the ability to take them in our stride when the time comes that we have believed in the love that we all wish to indulge in, from one lifetime to the next. With that one person that we believe to be "The One" - for us. 

My mother once wrote a love letter to my father and the climax of this letter read that: "The quarrels of lovers are the renewal of love.". This is one of the most essential statements of love because, to me, it portrays the desire for us to constantly fall in love with the one that we have chosen to love. It is a choice to allow yourself to be in love with another person, it is not easy, because we, as human beings, believe that we must suffer in times of happiness due to the fact that we are conditioned to overcomes trials and tribulations. The beauty of it all is that when you are truly committed to someone and they are truly committed to you, you will find a way to overcome the levels of discomfort that are brought about in moments of angst towards one another. This is what the idealistic nature of love ought to be. A fight for the chosen one. A fight for the outcome of the bigger picture. A fight towards the growth of your union and a fight towards the undying bond that you wish to explore.

When you look into the eyes of the one you love, do you recognise the soul that is looking back at you? Until the day that we feel that we have the burning desire to look into the depths of the soul of another, we should continue to love beyond the pain and allow for ourselves to reach a higher power that is cultivated from within our hearts. 

This is the ultimate purpose of love. 

The love below, that allows for the resurfacing of the love above.

To my love. To my chosen soul. To the one for me. - 

Believe in me, believe in thee, believe in an everlasting us.

Gros Bisous,

Khaleesi of the *UNIVERSE*

P.S. "The quarrels of lovers are the renewal of love." - Jean Racine. 

Tortured Souls.

There are few ideals that are aligned with human interaction. From a young age, we are taught to show each other respect, love, loyalty and the undying willingness to help each other to grow. What happens though, when the universe pairs two naturally dark souls? They either become extremely self-destructive and allow for the darkness to cloud their abilities to trust in the love that is presented before them – or – they are given the opportunity to create a new sense of light that enables them to strive for a better sense of all-round being, unbeknown to their consciousness.

When we continuously hurt each other, we are only going against the grain of Mother Nature’s deepest desire for us to unite in our pain and stand forcefully in our love for one another. I expressed in a conversation with some of my loved ones the other day, that the Church does not explore the truths expressed in the book of Revelations. There is a passage that reads of how man believes himself to be omnipotent, to the extent that he is abusive towards other species are found within this beautiful space that we call planet earth. What we are not taught is that God will bring about disaster upon disaster that man cannot surpass; thus revealing to us that there is a greater power out there, which will someday remove us from each other’s presence.  I am more-so spiritual than religious, but this passage articulates an honesty that extends not only to the ways in which we are becoming more complacent in our existence as a whole, but also to the manner in which we are able to casually disregard the spirit of another being, that we are supposedly connected to in love and especially sexual interrelations.

When one tortured soul is attracted to another, that is considerably worse off, what are the benefits that lie between the natures of their interaction? Why is it so much easier to break the spirit of the one who is constantly appreciative of the elevation of self and selves alike? Have we as a race, gone so far into our negative selfishness, that we are unable to recognise the love that others wish to unfold in unison with the growth that we hope to acquire, as individuals? These are the multifaceted questions that can only be allowed a genuine response, once we begin to understand that we are here to save ourselves; as well as the few others that are strategically brought through into our present lives – either from the experiences encountered in our past lives or for the purposes of creating a grandeur sense of meaning to the lives that we wish to flourish in, today. It is up to us to take ownership of the letting go of our innate pride in order to successfully nourish the bonds that we are so blessed to be a part of.

It is only once we come to terms with our demons that we too, will be able to become born again, in love, physical connection, emotional awareness and an all-round sensation of harmonious existence. 

We need to better appreciate the fulfilment  of the special ones who are gifted to us by a greater source of enlightenment; whether it is: ancestral, spiritual or for a general awakening of the soul’s worth. It is only when we start to recognise ourselves as each other’s keepers that we will be of a new energy that is all encompassing of the love and commitment that we so desperately seek to uphold.

Best Love,

Khaleesi Ipel of the *Universe*


P.S.  “I believe in the immeasurable power of love; that true love can endure any circumstance and reach across any distance.”  

― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience

"PLANET EARTH IS SPECIAL, BECAUSE 

OF US!"

- Master Khumo Ndlovu.

I find it highly fascinating, whenever I come across people whose success is aligned with my deepest desires. In this life and the ones to follow, I pledge for us to consistently adhere to the calling of our nature. In light of doing-so, we should always attempt to carry those surrounding us, towards greater heights, wherever we can. 

A few months ago, I found myself thrust into my dream job, under the strong guidance of a man whom I knew very little about. I was amazed to learn of my Head Chef, David Higgs and his abundance of success as a world-class chef. The Namibian raised philanthropist, reminisces on the ideals of sharing family meals and indulging in the art of fishing as a young scholar - amidst a brief sit-down I had, with the country's number one. His love for imparting knowledge on others is evident in his educational techniques; which require: great attention to clarity, immense strength and a hint of militant precision. 

I believe that the most powerful of people have a calming ability to silence a room with their presence. This is the inspirational respect that I have witnessed upon working under the strong guidance of Chef David Higgs. The ways in which he leads a team and specifically the one in our kitchen, is admirable in its own light and it no longer comes to me, as a surprise, that he has achieved grandeur status, within his career as a Culinary Artist. The Food Cycle is a foundation which he initiated through his love for uplifting the community and his spirit of 'togetherness'. It is the epitome of the balance between nutrition, physical activity and the acquisition of knowledge in all forms.

"Superman" - A core fitness technique being demonstrated by super-cyclist, Tshepo Nyrenda.

Food Cycle is aimed at coordinating the rehabilitation of previously and currently disadvantaged children; by means of redirecting their energy towards the activity of cycling and creating a hub through which they can gain access to their nutritional well-being and its maintenance herewith.

www.foodcycle.co.za

Anyone who believes in saving the children, is to be commended for the thought alone. It is of grave importance that we begin to open our minds up to the social dynamics of our societies as a whole. The type of education that one can gain through food education paired with the implementation of nutritional small-scale farming, will benefit our successors in the days to come. It makes me ecstatic to know that there are individuals, near and far who are confidently exploring the ultimate dream, to eradicate hunger. This is why I am in love with what I do, because every other day, I am propelled towards the true purpose of my existence. A healthy body begets a healthy mind and this, is the  outstanding goal. 

Together with my fellow colleagues, Tshepo (left) and Tendani (right), Chef David is pushing the envelope of interaction, in the hopes of making significant changes to the lives of surviving individuals in our community. We ought to give thanks for: the opportunities that we are presented with daily, our abilities to have a deeper understanding for our sense of purity and in our yearning to enlighten others to thrive in their own right.

Thank you for the inspiration. May the enrichment of your efforts, bear fruit atop the exploration of self and selves-alike.

Best,

Khaleesi Ipeleng x

P.S. Keep Eating... For Life!

The World Is Not Enough.

This is a short story detailing the head-space of a nomadic gentleman. 

It was whenever he went out into the Universe, that his mind and soul would expand in a way that one may only recognise; by exploring the many extensions of true personal freedom. The encouragement of his surroundings aided profusely to his motivation to propel. At times, he would feel this experience to be slightly overwhelming. He soon understood that this was a calling for the consumption of some great food.

Out there, he was a gentle soul, with the magical ability to sense and differentiate between the different energies surrounding his every footstep. This, his true nature, was apparent to him at home... wherever he thought this to be... Somewhere in the Sun, he had always envisioned, but there was always something off-putting about the stagnancy of the lifestyle to which he had become accustomed to - 'back there'. The slow patter of his sneaker clicked to the rhythm of the bicycle's ring, believing himself to be acquainted with everything he felt drawn to, in the spirit of: love, inspiration and the survival of the soul's worth.

This must  be how everybody lives where the grass illuminates an alternative green of life, he thought. Whilst walking through the Four-Am bustle, the young man became attuned to the conscious nature of the crowd around him. Every interaction and its counterpart  of refraction was timely in sight and enlightening to the core.  The words of his colleague resonated with the desires of his soul. To act with conviction and to place love as an open priority that enforces one to take on one's ultimate nature; honing it, into its true state of being.

 Slowly, surely, he believes that we will get there. At a point in his life, he had recently lost interest in humanity or the lack thereof; so the route of exploring the World as a whole, became a prominent headline in his already matured life - insofar as, he wishes to exchange with a stupendous array of cultures across many nations that have yet to be touched. What may come is yet to be discovered, for what he knows now, he will know tomorrow and what he knows tomorrow is that he knew today.

Happy Hump-Day!

Best Love,

Khaleesi Ipeleng x

P.S. 

IN LIMBO...

A MESSAGE FROM THE GLASS TABLE GIRL:

(Mykonos, Greece)

The past three months have left me in a submissive head-space; which has somewhat diffused my will to write. Submission is something that is often regarded as negative, due to the conditioned notion of the role being one of degradation. My subconscious has taken over my state of being and I am always grateful for these moments of silence; as they allow for my soul to revive its energy, propelling it to the extremes of constant reflection. My consciousness, in turn, has matured so-much-so, that in its submission, it has allowed for my soul to attract that which I am: grace, love and a state of harmonious equilibrium. This has been evident in the relationships that I am submerged in; as well as, those I am now able to value from a greater distance. 

It is in my belief that one should never force oneself to fulfil a role that one is not destined to play. I have been fasting for Ramadaan and praying continuously - as one should be doing - which has allowed for me to remember my sense of inner strength, peace and love. I am reminded daily of my purpose in this world, which is: to inspire through my culinary artistry, to enlighten through my spiritual connections and to uphold a sense of duty through written stimulation. It is due to these pillars of my existence, that I am able to regenerate my faith in others everyday. A dear friend of mine recently told me that her purpose in this world, is to love. In exchange, I reflected on my own will to love and in so-doing, uncovered some miserable discoveries about people who I once believed in. I had the opportunity to dive into intense discussions of why? how? when?, but I decided that it is best to understand that deceit is a dark trait that everybody explores at one point or another. In allowing for the nature of another person's actions to depict the follow through of mine, I would be going against my strong determination to always forgive and take the Karmic experience as one of true learning. 

It is our duty as neighbours to always encourage each other to be better in this life and the next. Without each other, we are mere idles of solitude and to exist alone is no man's dream. As I am reaching my mid-20's, I am feeling constantly challenged by my ideals of love, passion, faith and desire. Love and passion, play a more integral role in my discoveries, for I am at a point in my life, whereby: my happiness deserves to be shared with a counterpart, who is willing and worthy of exploring it, in its full capacity. As the saying goes, "Everything happens in Allah's time." and until he is ready to present me with more reward(s), I will continue to achieve a higher sense of being; in the hopes of stimulating an ever-lasting sense of the revolving evolution of self and selves-alike. I am questioning my past and taking the answers with me into my future; whilst remembering to live in my present. Lovers and friends have dropped like flies and I am ecstatic that there are fewer and farther between, for the ones who are with me today, are the ones who I have always cherished the most. The ones who I have yet to meet, as I move forward, are the ones who will be most likely to enlighten me further and there are few better feelings than the excitement of being inspired by fresh souls. 

I am looking forward to transferring to the other side - where this may be? - is a question that I ask myself daily. I see the answer in my dreamworld - my favourite place, where the mysteries are plentiful and doubt, an unfamiliar face. Day-by-day I am falling more in love with this period of growth; for only the strongest of people are able to walk through it with a sense of vigor and an attitude of perseverance. To stand firm in your ever-changing nature is something that is not readily accessible to most of us and in making more of an effort to become brighter with the break of each dawn, we can only be successful in our every endeavour.

So with all that is said and done, always remember to fulfill the destiny of the dreamer within you; for without our dreams, we are bottomless vessels, floating unnaturally through this beautiful journey of life.

Have the Best Day Ever!

Love,

Khaleesi Ipeleng of the *Universe* x

P.S. 'Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.' - Angel, Maya Angelou.

WE LOVE SCIENCE!

I was browsing through my Facebook news-feed this morning, when I came across one of those quizzes that people appear to be partaking in, of late. I usually steer clear of such indulgence; due to the idea that the answers relayed in such quizzes; defining one's character, are often generic in nature. They are usually quite similar to our horoscopes - which describe diverse human characteristics, in a way that most of the global population, can easily adhere to. 

Today, I felt different. My dear friend, Pheello Tsotsi, shared a quiz titled: "Which Periodic Element Are You". It is owing to the fact that I LOVE SCIENCE... I decided to roll with the punches and take on the Internet.

As I am growing into the woman that I hope to be, I am finding it more challenging; yet rewarding, to stay true to: my core values, sense of strong-will, free expression, my ability to love and my determination to succeed in fulfilling my purpose; in this lifetime and the ones to follow. The challenge is what keeps me going and the rewards are what allow me to keep the faith.

A lot of people have tried to express their concern to me, regarding my Iron intake. Due to the fact that I refuse to eat meat, I am often asked if my nutritional value is well-balanced. Well, I am so grateful to read something about myself that I relate to, from the depths of my heart. It seems as if I have all the Iron that I need :)

You Are

Iron

You take your time and make sure things are done right. You hate to make mistakes, no matter how big or small. You choose your words carefully to make sure you communicate effectively. You always get your point across. You aren't afraid of adventure but you don't seek it out. You would rather tend to your own garden. You pride yourself on being detail oriented. You never forget about anyone or anything.

Have a good time of your life and always remember that: Love is you.

Best,
Khaleesi x

P,S. Strength is within me. Patience is beside me. Love is all encompassing of my yearning to grow. - Ipeleng Motuba.

A MESSAGE FROM THE 

GLASS TABLE GIRL:

In Love, one is allowed the opportunity to recognise oneself beyond the realms of the soul of another being. The ways in which our love for each other manifests in its beauteous light, may be determined by our willingness to keep the faith; in believing that our interactions yield only, the purest of truths and allowing for the actions associated with such beliefs, to remain untainted by the conditioned notions of societies' perception of love. Love has been defined as everlasting; a facade which many of us aspire to out live. Love is not everlasting. Love is a revolutionary force, ever-changing with the tide of the soul. Believe in thee, believe in me, believe in an everlasting us. Be impeccable with your word.

Pledge allegiance to your soul.

Bon Dimanche (4/20)!

Best Love,

Khaleesi of the *Universe*.

P.S. 'My peace and security are within. My power and my strength is within.' - Uncle Deepak Chopra.

SORRY TO LEAVE YOU HANGING...

I found this video online, whilst searching for an N.E.R.D. Song des Tages (Song of the day), "Breakout" - please listen to this song, in your own time. Really listen to it though, the words...

It is unfortunate that this video ends so abruptly, but with the information and inspiration delivered to us through this eloquently expressed individual of the world; one cannot help, but strive for a better form of being, oneself.

Pharrell states in this interview, how grateful he is to have been named the greatest producer over the decade 2000-2010. What is so amazing about this creative spirit is that: the projects that he mentions in this interview; shot in 2010, are the very projects that he had then imagined -  as expressed, in his answering the host's question - would solidify his position as: the greatest producer, over the current decade. What dreams may come, we may not know. The power of the words that we express and the ways in which we choose for our inner-most desires to manifest are the fundamental values that we should always keep in mind, when creating the journey that we wish to travel. 

'You definitely want to just continue to be a part of the curation of a new experience, when someone hears a new record.' - Pharrell Williams.

Today, four years into the current decade that was spoken of in 2012, Monsieur Williams continues to shine on the world with his intuitive mind, child-friendly spirit and ever-growing will to push boundaries of creation beyond unfathomable heights.

Merci pour l'inspiration.

Bonne Nuit,

Khaleesi x

P.S. "Believe and Act as if it were impossible to fail" - Charles Kettering.

WHEN WATER IS THICKER...

They say that blood is thicker than water, but they never tell you which water you should stow away for safekeeping. Sometimes, we come across a current that we cannot fight against and in its blessing, we are taught the ideals of strength, love and complete surrender to the higher powers. There comes a point, when we must recognise that there are some waters that run thicker than blood.

I am so grateful to have gained a new sister, in this beautiful woman, Pheello (Khanyisa) Tsotsi.

Phee is one of those women who is so together, that it is sometimes frightening. I remember meeting her in the year 2009 and we happened to hit it off very well :) I was struggling with the idea of studying Law - a degree that I have much interest in - a career that I knew I lacked the desire to fulfill. As a thriving CA at the time, Phee advised me to follow my heart; as she could understand how unhappy I was at the time. Thanks to her inspiration, I continued with my studies through to the end of the following year and I struggled not only with my choice to persevere, but with the fact that I was being untrue to myself. She has always told me to be clear in my aspirations herewith and to really dive deep into something that I enjoy with all my heart. 

I am so honoured to have been an attendee of her beautiful wedding, to my "Brother", Mr. Lungi Tsotsi. What a truly inspirational union to witness. 

I wish you many days of happiness and an endless amount of undying love for one another.

 Image courtesy of: Mbuso Ndlovu

 Image courtesy of: Joan Njeri Njuguna.

 Image courtesy of: Joan Njeri Njuguna.

 Image courtesy of: The stranger who used Mbuso's phone.

Image courtesy of: Botshelo Motuba.

THE LOVE BE-KNOWN.

(To Lungi and Pheello)

When your heart lies with the soul of another

Your soul enshrines the look of your lover,

When true love fills the spirit of your air.

The love that sings the early bird's song

The truth that sets you free.

The kiss, a familiar feeling of

The peace in harmony.

The love of a lover

Unity at its strength

The passion, innate

The fear, 

no longer there.

Best Love,

Khaleesi x

P.S. Make love!

The Story Of My Life.

To fall for someone can be overwhelmingly intense. In our minds, we build up expectations; consciously and subconsciously and the minute we feel that those expectations are beginning to fall out of line, we are challenged with turmoil. There comes this constant wave of emotions, which, if not monitored correctly, may result in: the oozing of that turmoil, through the cracks of our souls, in a manner that is unattractive, unkind and unrecognisable. At most times, these uncontrolled outbursts of anger cause for us to express ourselves in ways which are untrue. This is usually released in the form of negative, emotional energy and it is often directed at the most unlucky individual. At the end of the day, we are all human and we have all made, are making and will make many mistakes that will hopefully be understood by those who hold us most dear to their hearts... If-so they choose.

Do we hurt the people that we consider very close to us, in an attempt to bring about a reaction or is this a chemical ignition that is fuelled by our inability to control our emotional imbalances during the tumultuous times of our tales? Are we really dark-minded individuals or have we been conditioned to word our emotions of pain, confusion and fear in a way that is often destructible to the relationships that we make high efforts to build, from scratch?

I know that I have been completely outlandish in my behaviour in terms of the above-mentioned analysis of pain and the reaction towards it. I have found that I am so busy trying to maintain my happiness, that I seldom find the time to really understand the moments in which I feel sad, angry, hurt or ashamed. This is evidentally dangerous; as it allows for me to reconcile with, only the good aspects of my individuality; whereas, the flaws that I possess are often ignored until such a point that I allow for my negative emotions to remain caged for long periods of times. This is completely unhealthy and even though I have always known so, this week, I allowed for myself to act so irrationally and insanely in love, that I am still failing to recognise myself as that person. This has brought to my attention that I need to better handle myself as a grown woman and as an educated member of this Universe.

I seek to be pain-free, but pain lives within me. I yearn to trust in the word of the good man, who so willingly chooses to understand me. I pray that I shall not falter in my endeavours herewith (in dealing with the negativity of the soul). I vow to be forever grateful, for the days to come. I have a deep hunger to remain faithful to the nature of my soul and in so-doing, I need  be true to every emotion that I experience. Only then, will I be able to create the equilibrium of my existence.  

To those who are hurting. To the one who understands me. I am here... I will forever be in love; as  love shall forever be in me. The darkness has faded and when it comes again, my desire to face it with enlightenment, will be my only saving grace.

Believe in Thee. Believe in Me. Believe in an Everlasting Us.

Best Love,

Khaleesi x

P.S. "... I don't wanna be here, alone." - Mariah Carey, Love Takes Time.



WHERE THERE'S A WILL, LET'S SAY GRACE!

The other day, I was very confident (perhaps too confident, because I was not concentrating as well as I should have been, at the time) in myself; in that I was to make another one of those delicious three-egg omelettes that I am so privileged to be able to make. To my surprise, the omelette broke as I was trying to flip it, without the use of a spatula (A trick that I shall soon use to get into amazing food-fairs). I thought to myself... "If this were a high-pressured situation; whereby a child's life depended on the production of some sort of good-looking egg-breakfast-dish, what would you do?"

In a heartbeat, I rapidly scrambled my 'omelette' which consisted of:

3 x egg whites - whisked into 50 ml of fat free milk and seasoned with salt and pepper to taste.

I sauteed some spinach, onions, shrooms, feta cheese and rosa tomatoes in a pan. To add to the flavour of my vegetables, I seasoned them with: cumin, medium curry powder, almond flakes and two pinches of brown sugar. I also decided to squeeze onto my vegetables, some fresh lemon juice and added 2.5 ml of soya sauce to enhance sweet 'n sour balance of the dish.

I cupped my stir-fried eggs in a small ramekin (a small, round dish - usually used for baking creme brulee), popped it onto my plate and it was ready to serve. As indicated in the image above, I served this dish with a miniature Greek salad and a dollop of chilli/mayonnaise.

It was pleasing to see that my hypothetical child would not have starved; as the meal was well-received, even though the guest in waiting had anticipated the reception of an egg-white omelette.

In essence, when you f*ck up in life, you need to come up with an alternative plan for survival.

 I would like to leave you with the message of  freedom:

Be free within the soul

The one that carries you to death.

Be free within your creative mind

Be free even when you are in debt

To another, to yourself

You are the only one who may know

What freedom lies beneath your beauty

The depths to which you will grow. 

Best Love,

Khaleesi Ipeleng x

P.S. Happy Hump-Day :)

VIA BBC/ICECREAM!

I really love this song. Open your mind to new adventures. Music is the one!

When I think of my dreams to fulfil my destiny, it sometimes makes me wonder; if it really is possible. Every time I sense a slither of self-doubt, I simply listen to my heart and remember why I choose to listen to the wisdom encapsulated by its every-beat. The heart knows the truth. The truth that gives leverage to the infinite possibilities associated with 'freedom of choice' and 'capacity to act'. The capacity to fulfil your potential in this world and the ones that we have yet to conquer. It is difficult to hear the word of the soul, for the heart possesses a deafening voice that only those who dare to pursue its awakening (the voice), are privileged to hear. It is not always clear in its intentions, but the beauty in having conversations with your heart is that: they never end. We can only push ourselves as far as we want to in this life and the next. I am constantly in search of inspiration; whether it be from the "upper-class" gentleman who attends the same gym as I. Or the lady at the filling station who allows for us to exchange in brief moments of inspirational energy. Human interaction should have been classified as the eighth wonder of the world; I think more of us would be of a higher appreciation for it, than we are today. We need to have a deeper yearning for learning about each other, our desires, hopes and fears. The only way in which my dreams will fail to come true is if I stop believing in their fruition. The moment you stop believing in yourself, is the moment that you lose a sense of your self-worth and pride. If you 'believe and act as if it were impossible to fail', you will fail forward until you are able to succeed. 

They say that time waits for no man; yet, mankind created the concept of time. Manifest on your own. Engage with those who make your soul fly. Build from within.

Jummah Mubarak!

Best,

Khaleesi of the *UNIVERSE*

P.S. In case anyone was wondering: My dream-job is to be Pharrell Williams's personal chef... Watch this space, watch the throne!

WORD OF THE DAY!

prude

pruːd/

noun

1. 1.

   a person who is or claims to be easily shocked by matters relating to sex or nudity.

   "the sex was so ambiguous and romantic that none but a prude could find it objectionable"

   synonyms:

   puritan, prig, killjoy, moral zealot/fanatic, moralist, Mrs Grundy,Grundy, old maid, schoolmarm, pietist, Victorian, priggish person;More

Buenos Noches,

Khaleesi x

P.S. I had to highlight my favourite of all of the aforementioned synonyms: 'Killjoy', ha ha. 

Empty Thoughts... 

1. What do you do when your world is so open that you cannot begin to explore the perplexities and the nature of its multifaceted complacency. I use the term complacency here, because the world as a whole, is occupied by a complacent atmosphere. I do not know what fuels my feeling towards complacency, but I assume it to be one of the most incoherent states of being. 

2. Maybe it is a form of insecurity that is possessed by the world; due to the constant harm that is inflicted on it and its inhabitants, consistently, without fail.  

3. It is said that one should not fear mediocrity. This statement should be extended to: "Do not fear mediocrity, fear complacency". It would be fitting for the balance of the message as a whole, do you not think?

... Just a few thoughts.

Happy Weekend!

Best,

Khaleesi of the *Universe* x

P.S. Everything happens in Allah's time. Jummah Mubarak!