PART 1:

I would have never believed them... 

It was almost a year ago, that I found myself in a situation whereby I had lost: two jobs, an apartment and my lover all in the space of a month. I was at an all time low and I had a lot of serious doubts about myself for the very first in my life. I am usually great at rolling with the hard times, but the year of 2015 exposed me to the most vulnerable side of my character - for which I will forever remain grateful. 

I was in a state of mind that questioned why it is that my desired purpose to share my talent was uncoupled from the ways in which the Universe had projected its powers on the outcomes of my bold ambitions. If someone had told me at the beginning of last year that my partner would later become disloyal, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my dear friend would later fire me, I too would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my other former boss would never let me step foot in the kitchen, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me that my ex-flatmates would cause for me to be evicted from our apartment, I would have never believed them.

I would have never believed that my happiness would be in jeopardy of those by whom I chose to surround myself with - by those whom I thought myself to love.

I suppose that this is what happens sometimes, when you instill your trust in others. It became so important for me to start protecting my purpose and my duties as a global citizen; that I decided to empower myself by starting again. I decided that it was time to head back home and that perhaps the harsh realities that I was exposed to were a message from that very same Universe to redirect my ambitions towards a more compelling greatness. The greatness that I am feeling today! The greatness of being able to take a small piece of every lesson learnt through the aforementioned experiences. The greatness of self-preservation. 

So there I found myself, driving from Cape town to Johannesburg, a day after I had found out that my partner had been unfaithful towards me and our relationship - Can you imagine having to put your anger aside in order to embark on a 15 hour road trip with the one who has betrayed you, the one who you once thought to be your all, in the name of love? - I do not have to, for I lived through such pain and I will continue to live through more pain that I shall blessed enough to experience; for without it, I would not be dressed with the ammunition to keep on fulfilling all of my passions. 

I have been absent for the past eight months, but I am back and my motivation force is stronger that ever before. I had to get my mind, body and soul right in order to be able to share with you again; from peaceful state of mind and a forgiven heart. I do not feel anger anymore, for anger is no longer within me.

If someone had told me during that tumultuous time that I would be sitting here today, writing this letter to you all, I would have never believed them. If they had said that I would be sitting here today, as an entrepreneur, I would have never believed them. If someone had told me then, that I would be able to look at my former lover, friends and employers and envision a future where we can one day be friends, I would have never believed them and 

If someone had told me that my soul would have been broken in the first place, I would have never believed  them.

To be continued... 

Best,

Khaleesi aka Glass Table Girl x

P.S. "When love is not enough, remember to love some more." - Ipeleng Motuba.